Decided to do a short follow up on cari's post. I soo agree with that, "what doesn't break you only makes you stronger". Still, that said, I'm real scared of going through something like that all over again. Just thought I could never trust myself again, for being naive and what-not. ah well, the past happened for reasons I can't comprehend, and won't try to. I'm believing everything happens for a reason.. so yeah.
Rushed to church yesterday after some failed mother's day shopping. And I finally filled my pastamania craving! I really don't know what mum would like, we have such contradicting taste. Chocolate's probably the safest option now. Felt a sudden need to pray and just heal all those feelings within me. There I was, in complete realization that God loves me so much and I'm fretting about other things that shouldn't really matter anyway. How silly could I be.. I need that faith that He's right there beside me, that the paths I take from now on are guided and I'll make the right decisions.
ohh, and you know something. I alwayss wondered how two guys, or two girls for that matter could really love each other. I used to think it's all made up in their heads or something. haha but well, after reading colin&kero's blog, they're like so sweet towards each other. I really don't think they're making it up, they genuinely feel for each other. hmmm. how interesting.