I am not dumb!

okay, what I really wanna blog about is about the horrible crappy mid years. What reaaaally affected me was the really ugly F i got from maths. It's a horrible F too. gosh, when I got back my paper, I seriously never felt so dumb before (sitting beside huisi wasn't helping). and then, I spent the whole day trying to think of reasons which could have made me dumb (sounds silly, i know) and blaming whoever didn't implant the smart math gene into me, that smart math gene my brother got instead. Anyway, after a long while, I kinda figured that when you really phyche yourself into believing something(sth negative), the more likely it'll be. which reminds me, there's even a term for it. the self-fulfilling prophecy. okay, I'm not dumb. I can speak.
yeah, so I know I'm not the only one failing. but seriously, it's freaking out time for me. 108 days doesn't exactly seem like a very long time to me. Such grades can demoralize you when actually, it should be all the more reason to spur that determination in you to work harder. I know I should be feeling the latter, but it's pretty demoralizing too.
On a totally different note, I have cravings for noodles! yes, noodles. it's good for you, better than rice actually. (please don't think it's my first time eating noodles). I just have a new found affinity for it. =)